It's been almost 5 years since I been here at Tender Mercies Inc.
Since being here,all I get now is drama! Drama from residents and surrounding negro people in the area,who dwell outdoors all hours just to see if I am gonna "come out and kill or kick their asses".
I refuse to do any of it.
I got people talking about I smell like Haywood Dixon the RSW.
I got women like Yvonne Thompson,Ludell Ruffin,and Paula in room 212,who instigate in my life to others and to God.
Men like Lewis Fisher and others at Harkavey Hall,Haven,and Dana love to instigate and get in my online life.
It's terrible. Sometimes I wish I hadn't seen the ad for this place back in 2013 at the Dropp Inn,when I was homeless. I just had a feeling it be a nice place for a few years. It has been,but now I need to get myself up and get my own place and get a better life. Even if I have to go back to a group home,I hope to find a nice place to go. I wanted to get me a furnished apartment for $450 to $…
Lord I hope he doesn't send me to hell for all this,but I am scared.
I HAVE SPIRIT ATTACHMENT not mental illness!
I conjured up a spirit of a MJ fan or an impersonator/double.
Maybe even the real Michael? :o
The voices are threatening me a lot lately and causing me pins and needles effects that others don't have!
Daryl: "Shut up Trin before I hurt you!"
*Feels pins and needles pricking my skin*
Yeah,I think I have a ghost or really bad disorder. But what? Schizo-effective Disorder is this bad?
Once I saw a image of a bug and freaked out! It looked real. Like it was there.
I was told to not play or fuck around with MJ in my head. *Cries* But he is so cool! :(
I looked up my symptoms,and true indeed I have a ghost and some telepathic bond with said ghost.
I read this article on spirits: http://www.rescuespirit.co.uk/page3.html
And this one: https://www.counterpunch.org/2013/11/08/possessed-by-the-ghost-of-michael-jackson/
I swear the later…
My voices are telling me things about her like they are angels or demons.
And it's hard to deal with. Mom is dying and although alive,I have made her memorial early.
I will edit it later.
It's been almost three years since I have her at the hospice. I have been avoiding her,cause I feel like I failed her.
I dont have the grandkids she wanted or have I finished school yet.
But I am trying?
And I put on weight instead of loosing.
Also,this is as far I got in life. Living at Tender Mercies on my own earned disability funds.
She was too. Living the same. I guess it's better than nothing?
Good thing is I got to see mom before dying. I will see her again on Sunday unless she passes.
I will take a cab out there this time.
I also may have to buy her headstone for around hundred dollars.
Hopefully,I will have enough funds.
I will truly miss her. All the good times. All the love. Good bye mom. See you in heaven someday! <3